assalam
hai. apa khabar ? saya tak sihat ni ha.demam kus kus. sampai tak larat. hahahha demam start masa khamis haritu la punca... basah sbb hujan masa lari2 g kejar bas. then lepas tu terus soksek2... smlm kira ok lg harini berselimut n terbaring je la.... saya kalau demam lain sikit. sbb tu better saya jgn demam.
then skrg ni jd takde mood pulakkk... mood belajar dah hilang lebur. now completely saya da tawar hati nak belajar atas sebab2 tertentu. sem ni saya pun mcm rasa cant do so well. first belajar tp tak faham. skrg pulak dapat lect strict gila masa menanda. so how? harapan sem nie dah xmcm harapan awal sem haritu. haritu target deanlist. tp skrg ni just target lulus.. Allahumaamin....
last week adalah minggu yg paling gila untuk saya. sebab nyer saya berani bersuara pada abang saya saya nak berhenti. hahahaha bukan sbb give up. nak kata sebab give up itu ada la sikit tp faktor lain bnyk buat saya nak berhenti. surrounding saya yang memeningkan kepala saya, then sebab2 lain yang sangat peribadi untuk di cerita kan. yes they not support me T_T yes i know saya lg 2 tahun je nak habis... diorg cakap rugi la kalau saya berenti then kerja then buat pjj from the start. as asilah said i need motivator giver. i appreciate dengan kehadiran rai n da geng, my girls, fatin eilah naddy n ardilla yg selalu bg motivation and support. tp i dont need their motivation.... i mean not from them. i need encouragement from my family. xperlu kata2 enough dengan hidup bahagia, happy back to the old life. itu dah cukup bg saya motivation. tp itu takkan berlaku kan?
actually i smile outside but i suffer inside. i wish that i can erase all the old memories so that i cant be hurt by remember it.yes the memories is the most beautiful memories which is cant repeated. but at the same time the memories killing my heart. it's hurt because it cant be the same anymore.